But it wasn't until Friday, that all the little things that seemed so urgent, were abruptly placed into perspective.
Shop for one more holiday trinket, or pause for a mommy-daughter lunch? Get on top of my year-end reporting, or actually get home in time for dinner with the family? Holiday party or quiet time with my 4 year old boy who is feeling under the weather?
Suddenly these questions seem ridiculous.
There is silence as we mourn with the Newtown families and community. We are bound to them in prayer as we empathize with their unfathomable loss. We are reminded of how fragile life is and how important it is to embrace every second of it with our loved ones.
And we wonder if "safe" exists for any of us anymore.
Micah 5:4 He will stand and shepherd his flock...and they shall live securely.
Because of His birth, life, death and resurrection, we can live secure in the knowledge that He waits for us. He is always close. He is desperate for us to invite Him in. Regardless of what we are living through right now, there is comfort and security in his deep and fierce love for us.
Our Shepherd feels our anguish. He knows the pain of losing a child to a terrible death at the hand of sin. He humbled himself and lived it first hand, so that we could receive the promise of His restoration, and live in the confidence of life everlasting without sin and without pain.
In this season of faith and family and friends, this tragedy is all the more cruel. But because He came, we have the promise and assurance of a time and place where we can live, and love, and forgive.
As we focus on the birth of the Redeemer, hold on to the promise. Be consoled. Be assured. Be at peace.
I shall dwell secure.
He shall be my peace.
Oh, Lord Jesus, you entered the dark world of your day. Won’t you enter ours? We are weary of bloodshed. We, like the wise men, are looking for a star. We, like the shepherds, are kneeling at a manger.
This Christmas, we ask you, heal us, help us, be born anew in us.